Today in the life...

I'm learning, albeit slowly.

Yesterday was Valentine's Day, which I like to pretend I hate and detest, but every year I have to admit to myself that I am counting down the hours until it's over. What a horrid day. My father sent me a box of chocolates the night before, and fifty bucks, which was a huge treat (holding my breath waiting for payday!). Well, that ends the nice part of things. I opened my chocolates and filled my mouth with them, then tore out the door for a date. During my date, the dude tol' me we shouldn't be dating. Second time I've gotten this comment from my victims in the past three weeks. Well, after that, I knew that V-day would be the same as any other year. I can't help myself, I keep hoping someone will just sweep me away. No. This year I sat at home and went to bed early. Not only that, but I sent K an email that I never should have sent him, expecially after he said he wanted to get to know me and stay friends. It was meant to be sort of funny, but I read it later and realized that I just sounded strange; I keep noticing that I've dug myself an awfully big hole with people... and then I drop in a stick of dynamite and just blow the whole thing into a gi-normous crater. At least that way I can be sure that my work is done properly.